“How can I forgive when it hurts so much?” Have you ever said these words? You know you need to forgive, and you want to be obedient to God and do so, but how? How can we let go of those things that have wounded us in unimaginable ways? A few weeks ago, I wrote a long and deeply personal blog about my own struggle to forgive my own brother for something that felt unforgivable to me. (You can find that blog post here.) I knew I wanted and needed to forgive him, but I wasn’t su
One summer, when our boys were just little guys we took them to explore Meramac Caverns, a local cave and popular tourist attraction in our state. As you’d expect the cave was dark, but our tour guide carried a large luminous flashlight and the walkway itself was well lit. At one point in our exploration we came to a place where there was no lighting and only the guides flashlight lit our way. The guide stopped, gathered our small group together and began to talk about the g
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. — Psalm 34:18 Sometimes I feel like such a phony. Since the release of my memoir, Little Girl Crying, I have received so many lovely emails, comments, and even reviews saying how “courageous”. “strong”, and “amazing” I am. When I read such wonderful comments, I always think to myself, “They can’t possibly be referring to me!” I do not feel worthy of any one of those comments, because I feel weak, pathetic
Trials come to each of us. We all must endure our seasons of adversity, and most of us realize that the storms in life can teach us a lot in ways other things can’t. For starters, they can build our faith and trust in God. They often keep us “on our knees” in prayer, and that can be a very good thing. But what about when God allows trials into our lives that seem overwhelming and never ending. Think Job. I’m sure Job felt that his trials were unending and overwhelming, and y
How would you live today if you knew it were your last? Would you live it any differently? Would you live it to the full? Would you squeeze everything you could out of every precious moment? Would you spend it focusing on the positive instead of the negative? In other words, would you stop sweating the small stuff? Yeah, I think most of us would when faced with the certainty that our time here was up. The thing is, and not to upset anyone, but today could be our last! There i
Ever imagine what it would’ve been like to walk with Jesus? I often have. I can only imagine the profound effect watching as He healed the sick, raised the dead, or gave the Sermon on the Mount would have had on my faith and trust in Him. While we obviously can’t physically know what this experience might have been like, there is another way. We can still have a personal encounter with the Lord in the Gospels through a form of Ignatian Prayer known as; Imaginative Prayer or
Who among us has not experienced one of those sleepless nights spent tossing and turning, our mind consumed with “what if’s” and “how will’s” instead of sweet dreams. It has been said, we live in an “Age of Anxiety” and who could disagree with that? Everywhere we look people’s faces are taut and tense. The prevailing attitude of society is one of disquiet and apprehension. I just bet you know someone that suffers from some disorder complicated or even brought on by stress and
Why is surrendering so hard to do
When all it means is falling into You?
From “Surrender” a poem by Belinda Rose We admitted we were powerless to overcome our weaknesses – that our lives had become unmanageable. – The First Step, Alcoholics Anonymous Imagine we are gathered together in a small meeting room. We watch as a young bearded man with long dark hair scribbles across the right side of the chalk board the words: The First Step to Serenity: Surrender. What Will
If there is one thing in life that’s certain it’s that nothing stays the same. Our circumstances and our lives change … whether we like it or not. The same can be said for many of the people in our lives – they come and go. Change is good, but not all of us embrace it. Many of us resist the new and unknown much preferring to cling to the comfortable and familiar. But the truth is, change happens whether we cling to it or embrace it. All things pass away, and for that we reall
Our battle in this life is spiritual. If you don’t believe me then you only need to read the words of the Apostle Paul in Ephesians 6:11-12, to understand with clarity the reality of the spiritual battle around us. Knowing this then we as Christians also know that this battle is best fought on our knees in prayer. But what are we to do when the enemy has worn us down to a place where prayer becomes difficult, if not impossible? Have you ever found yourself in this place? I ha
During those long years, I hung on to one thing – my love and devotion to Jesus. My faith often faltered, but my love didn’t. In my suffering I sought Him in prayer even more earnestly. I can’t explain that except to say it was just the grace of God. Yet, no matter how much I prayed God was silent, and He didn’t appear to be coming to my rescue anytime soon. So I often felt abandoned by Him. Sometimes I got angry at Him for His seeming silence in the face of the tremendous da
Is there someone in your life that doesn’t believe in God, or questions whether He even exists at all? I imagine we all have such a person in our life. Someone that we pray will one day come to know, accept, and love the Lord as we do. In my life that person is my oldest son. He is a professed agnostic. I don’t argue with him about his beliefs. Instead, I quietly pray for him. As a contemplative I love the silence. I love nature walks, sunsets, starry nights and luminous full
I’ve known for most of my life there would be a book about my experiences with the eating disorder. My Mom always encouraged me to write my story so it might help others going through something similar. At 19, I had the director of an eating disorder non-profit tell me to write a book because I had a powerful story to tell that would help others. Years passed and no book. That is, until the miracle healing! The thing is, the book wasn’t ready to be written all those years ago
Standing on the promises of God. This is how I have weathered many storms in my own life. Our Heavenly Father has been gracious in His promises giving us literally thousands within the Bible. These bright jewels He has given to provide hope in the midst of our despair, courage when we grow weak, strength when we are fighting temptation, direction when we feel lost, renewed confidence in His presence with us when we feel alone and afraid. Our loving God has given us a promise
It was roughly 10 years ago that I had a profound spiritual encounter that by God’s grace stilled the Voice of the eating disorder and lifted the depression that had been a part of my life for nearly forty years. After that experience my thinking changed because I had changed. No, I had more than changed because in that extraordinary moment when the Holy Spirit fell on me I wasn’t only healed, I was transformed. That moment of unspeakable grace was my resurrection – a resurre
“The Most Beautiful Flower”, is a story with a message that reminds us to see and appreciate the beauty and love that is all around us in every moment. Life is a gift, every second of it. Sometimes we are so consumed with the trials and challenges in our lives that we forget to be thankful. Sometimes our hearts are so heavy with grief or sorrow or even self-pity we are unable to rise above the pain to recognize how blessed we actually are in spite of our troubles. Sometimes w
I know God lives by the wonders I see!
How else could such beauty possibly be?
Witness His glory in the breaking of dawn –
Its quiet splendor all too quickly gone.
Birds sing merrily to greet the new day –
With their bold array of colors displayed.
Dewdrops tenderly kiss each blade of grass –
In a morning embrace that will all-to-soon pass.
A fiery sun rises as it gives way –
To the warmth and light of its life-giving rays. I know God lives by the wonders I see –
Life is hard. I don’t say that to be negative, but because it is a fact. Our Heavenly Father never promised any of us any easy life, only that He would be with us through the hard times. Those challenging times offer us the opportunity to grow spiritually and cultivate an even deeper, more intimate relationship with the Lord. That is often the greatest gift in the hardship – at least this has been my experience. Still, when we are in the midst of the storm’s of our lives it c
If you are new to my blog … “Welcome” and if you are one of my longtime subscribers, “Welcome back”! I took a long hiatus from writing for the blog, choosing after my Mom passed away last year to devote all my time to finishing the manuscript for my first book. With the book now finished and in the hands of my editor/agent, it is time to move forward and turn my attention in new directions, and on the path I feel The Lord is leading my work. First up, was the transformation o
Scripture: He heals the broken-hearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3 What are the wounds that bind you? What are the wounds that keep you bound to the past and preventing you from living joyfully in the present? How do we “let go”, and by that I mean really “let go” of the memories and pain of things that happened yesterday? We all know in our ‘heads’ at least, that we need to move beyond past hurts but it isn’t always that easy. The problem is in getting our hearts