Put On The Armor Of God
I’ve known for most of my life there would be a book about my experiences with the eating disorder. My Mom always encouraged me to write my story so it might help others going through something similar. At 19, I had the director of an eating disorder non-profit tell me to write a book because I had a powerful story to tell that would help others. Years passed and no book. That is, until the miracle healing!
The thing is, the book wasn’t ready to be written all those years ago because while I had many experiences to share, this story wasn’t to be just about my dark journey. No, this story was about God’s grace. It was about miracles and healing and divine love. I had to wait until the moment of that divine encounter with The Lord – the moment He stilled the Voice of the Eating Disorder. Now the story was ready to be told!
After the healing my life was literally resurrected. That encounter with the Holy Spirit – that moment I was embraced in His Love – that changed everything for me – everything. My poetry flowed. My spirit was on fire for the Lord. I wanted to shout from the highest rooftop to the world about the incredible love that Jesus has to give each one of us. I wanted everyone to know the power of that love to heal and resurrect a life, and that He isn’t a has-been God but a living God! Yes, He does make all things new again! Yes, He does makes beauty from ashes! Soon after this experience everything began to fall into place. The right people came into my life to help me sort through all those many years to write this book, and its writing began in earnest.
The whole process of actually writing the book was nothing less than amazing. It was probably the most peaceful and joyful time of my life. Everyday before I sat down to write I would pray for the Holy Spirit to guide me, to infuse this book with divine love and light so that I may truly glorify the Lord. I wanted it to give hope and inspiration to those suffering and desperately trying to hold on and make sense of life.
I wrote non-stop. It is hard to explain, but I often felt the Presence of the Holy Spirit with me. I knew I was being guided by the way I was filled with inspiration for the poetry, prayers, and illustrations in the book. I had always wondered what my purpose in life was. “Am I only here to suffer?” I used to ask Jesus. Now I knew what His plan was for me! I was doing the work I came here to do! I suppose that is why I was so contented, so peaceful and so happy for probably for the first time in my life.
While I have had an agent guiding this project for 5 years now, I decided not to traditionally publish and go the Indie route so that I may keep the creative control over all the poetry, prayers and illustrations that I wanted included. I also wanted full control over my story. This needed to be told in the way the Lord was guiding me to tell it without an editor making cuts and suggestions at every turn.
As it happened, one night when I was reading the Bible, I “stumbled” onto a passage in Ephesians. Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground. Ephesians 6:10-13
It suddenly all made sense! All this chaos in my life was a spiritual attack! I spoke to my priest and he confirmed what I believed the Lord was trying to tell me, the enemy was throwing a hissy fit this book was about to be published. He told me I had a powerful testimony to glorify God, and that it would help so many suffering souls find Him in their trials. He finished by encouraging me and adding that I had a story of miracles and hope to share. He told me not to let the enemy keep me from telling it. I’d found what I’d needed to persevere.
Well, that chat with my priest was a couple of months ago. I can’t honestly say everything has settled down completely at home, although my health is much improved. Praise God! We are still struggling mightily with financial issues, and bear in mind that my husband’s income is what is supporting this book’s publication. My son and I are still slowly working through our problems. But I might add that even when we knock heads we come back together and find that space of love we’ve always shared. I don’t think the enemy can break that powerful bond of love my son and I share any more than the enemy was able to break the bond of love and devotion I’ve felt for Jesus since I was a 5-year old child. So I keep putting one foot in front of the other each morning and working towards my goal – releasing this story to the world. Having said that, the book will be in pre-order within the next few weeks, and in bookstores everywhere on August 11,2018.
This experience has strengthened me, and I believe that’s what trials are meant to do. It has opened my eyes to the enemies tricks. I have responded by putting on the armor of God, which for me includes praying through it, doing my spiritual reading, and taking weekly trips to pray before the Blessed Sacrament. I stumble. I fall. I always have. I always will. I’m human. But I get back up because I know God is with me. He is strong when I am weak. I couldn’t do it without Him in my life. But I’m not giving in to those dark forces intent on destroying me, and I’m certainly not giving up on the mission the Lord is sending me on!
In closing I’d like to say I am learning a lot about spiritual warfare in the process of writing and publishing this book. I now firmly believe that if the enemy is fighting me this hard then I must be doing something right … something good for God’s Kingdom. I also believe that in asking to give my life in service to God that I stepped onto the front line of battle. So I will hold these verses St Paul wrote in Ephesians close to my heart to remind me the real battle is spiritual, and that Jesus has already won the victory for me. I will stand strong with the Holy Spirit guiding the way and the Word of God in my heart.
Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the LORD’s people. Ephesians 14-18
Before I end this post I’d like to debut the book trailer I created this week. Although this video will soon be on my websites homepage (my new author site), and on my Amazon Author Page as well, I first wanted to give my Facebook family a sneak peek at the story the enemy is trying so hard to keep me from sharing. Please feel free to share this video. I love each and every single one of you. Thank you for your love and support. I hope you enjoy the trailer and will take a moment to leave a comment below!
In Christ’s Love, Belinda Book Trailer For Little Girl Crying In Book Stores August, 11, 2018